My Chinese blog's up!

After a busy and anxious week, I finally have the time to sit down and set up a Chinese blog.

If you ask whether I like to write in Chinese or English. I say it depends.

With English, I definitely can type faster. However, for certain things I find that I can describe better and more in depth with Chinese, such as my thought for my late mother. And it probably would take me longer to churn it out in English, as my English command is only half-full, so as my Chinese.

Anyway, this Chinese blog will be an alternate place for me to jot down my thought, when I have problem describing it in depth with English, or when something is best described in Chinese.

Finally it's positive but...

After 3 tests I did at home, 2 at different clinics, and all came back negative. My anxiety level has already reached its top. I' was going nuts.

Despites of all the negative responses, I felt pregnant.(This's what they called woman's instinct)

As usual I also prayed and asked for a sign for confirmation (something seemed silly but worked for me). And the answer was a positive one, against all the odds.

If you ask me if I took the sign seriously, I would say YES, 70% convinced. In my case, modern science had failed me, in its accuracy.

So I decided that I should wait till Monday, which was yesterday, and see.

Monday, still no AF. I was caught in between whether to get another test, or not. As the chance of wasting another 8 bucks on a negative result was high. In the end I gave in to the temptation and bought one. Close to buying an ovulation kit.

Anyway, my instinct was right.

And this morning, first thing I did, repeated the test, with a mixed feeling. Despite the fact that I've prepared for another "NO", but I was secretly hoping for a "YES".

After the simple procedure, my eyes were fixed at the little rectangular window on the reaction pack, observing the hormone-chemical thing took effect. It bleed in to the "T" mark area and out of it. And left a visible faint pink line.(This's the key. If Not Pregnant, there would be NO line at "T" mark, only one darker pink line at "C" mark)

I couldn't hold myself from laughing out, calling out to my DH, to come and confirm what I saw. I was overwhelmed.

"Wait, you settled down first." He was making milk for my DD.

We waited another minute or so.

Then two lines we saw, one darker than the other.

Immediately I called in to office for time off, to go to see my gynae.

After a scan, we could only see a vague little sack.

Yes, I'm pregnant, but the embryo is still too little to actually be seen clearly with ultrasound. We have to wait for another one or two weeks to see whether the conception is healthy or otherwise.

By calculation, the embryo should be 3 weeks old, somehow it seems smaller than it should be.

2 explanations:

1. Ovulation late and heace the conception was delayed. Miscalculation.
2. The anti-depressant that I'm taking has delayed the development of the embryo. And what else? (O.k. imagination is running wild, and touch wood)

I'm keeping my fingers and toes crossed for the first possibility, miscalculation.

All I can do now is to pray that the conception is totally healthy and normal, continue my folic acid faithfully and let nature takes its course.

And I 'm going back for follow-up next week.

It's weekend again.

Am down with flu after a busy week with many deadlines to rush. Phew.

Anyway, thank goodness it's weekend so that I can have some good rests.

Just a little worry that my DD would catch my virus and becomes sick again, as she just recovered from a minor fever. Keeping my fingers crossed.

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5 Reasons Why I Blog?

After reading two of my most frequent mummy's blogs, which happens to have the same topic: ‘5 Reasons Why I Blog?’ for one of their posts.

I thought, why not give it a shot.

Let's see...

1. Reviving and maintaining my designing and coding passion.
I enjoy designing and coding my own blog template.

I used to blog everyday, back in 2002 till end of 2004. Then I decided to stop. At that time I was having a dip in career and lost passion in designing and coding and wanted to do something else, something totally different.

However, after one big round, I came to realize that I still have a passion for designing and coding. Therefore, this blog will serve as a little something that keeps me going and makes me proud.

2. Inspired by blogs I frequent daily.
One of my early inspirations is Odds and Ends. A photoblog owned by a Malaysian who is currently studying in UK. Who never seize to impress his visitors (me) with his photos and writing. Check it out.

Apart from Odds & Ends, I'm also inspired by Mumsgather, Twinsmom's chinese blog, Raising Belle (an old friend's blog ;) ) and many others. Their blog are on the top of my daily most frequent list.

Because of them, I find my passion again, except that I've procrastined too long.

3. Keeping a journal of my life and about my baby.
I'm a lazy person and never have the habit or patience to keep a written journal all my life.

Back in 2002, when Blogger was first launched, I started blog because it was the 'in thing'. It was fun. And that blog's still out there. On and off I still go through those entries, and have a good laugh remembering those days.

Things have changed. Today I have a daughter. She's newfound energy. And I want to mark down every bit and piece of our growing-up journey together.

So one day she and I can read together. Or be her inspiration to continue on her path when I'm no longer around.

After all, life is short, or could be shorter than we know.

4. To share my joy, photographs and experience.
My daughter and my hubby are my joy (finally he gets mentioned here. He he...). And I'm in the midst of doing up a photolog. With that I will put up picutres I took for/with my daughter and hubby, during our family trips, and on other subject matters.

Also, I want to write about things I experienced. At one point, I often ponder over my purpose in life.

Perhaps this's one.

5. Last but not least, hoping one day I can make a living out of blogging. And be my own boss.
Being able to work from home is my dream. I hope that one day I can work from home, and be my own boss. And when I do, I want to do something I love and familiar with. That's blogging.

These are the 5 reasons why I blog (again)?. Sorry for being this dead serious. And Happy Chap Goh Mei.

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